A song from your childhood

Monday, February 28, 2011

It wasn't until about 5 years ago that I realized how morose a child I was (at times).  Beyond playing "House", pretending I was a famous singer and writing picture books with my friends, I spent most of my time doing introspective and quiet things, like writing in my little pink diary, reading, and reading too much into songs like "Without You".



This was my favorite song when I was 8 years old.

Weird, I know.

My mother was packing for a three-week long business trip to a different continent and I wept and clutched her, with this song on repeat.  And yes, I was the one who put it on repeat.  In fact, I had to buy the Music Box cassette twice because I wore the first one out.  The second one is not in good condition, but luckily I have since acquired a digitized version ... and stopped listening to Mariah Carey, save "All I Want For Christmas Is You".

I'm sure I knew it then, that the song is not about one's relationship with one's mother, but one's lover.  But I had no lover -- just a small handful of schoolgirl crushes -- and the words were speaking directly to me about my mother!  I could not fathom living without her.

Well, she left the next day and sent me the occasional letter, written on hotel paper.  And I sobbed as I read each one (I still tear up when I take a peek at them) and then slept with them under my pillow for days afterwards.  I wasn't a dramatic child, though.  I guess I just ... felt very deeply.

Luckily I grew out of this precociously somber phase, when I got cable (the answer to all of life's problems, ain't it?) and was hooked on my favorite, favorite kids television show, Kids Incorporated.  I have a few favorite songs from that show too:

"Release Me", Wilson Phillips

(Check out a young Jennifer Love Hewitt, Eric Balfour AND Brian Friedman!)

"Save The Best For Last", Vanessa Williams


And a song I learned from watching Kids Inc, "Saving Forever For You", by Shanice (the subtext of which I did not understand at 10, natch):

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